Friend-sick

Recently one of my best friends moved away so some place thats like 3 hours away. Im sure that if you've ever had a friend move away, you know what I'm feeling. This is the first time its ever happened to me so I'm having a really hard time. I have other friends but he was my best friend. I talked to him about everything. I even looked up to him a little bit. He was just one my first really good friends and I dont know if he's ever moving back and its agonizing!! I just really want to find already. but I guess I'll have to wait. So, yea

Its All Good In The Hood

I havent been on since my last post, and I realized that it was uber depressing and Im sorry about that. It wasnt supposed to be like that, I was just venting and I opened up a little more then I normally like to. However, I might as well give an update. School is a lot better then I thought it was going to be. The people that teased me, dont even bother anymore. Thank you, Lord. My whole outlook on life is much better. So yea.... Its all good in the hood.

Me Vs. The World

I havent written in a while but i guess its because nothing really has happened. So....i guess i'll just vent, which is good because i normally never do that. I feel like at times the world is against me. For instance, i liked this girl for like a long time, but i never said anything. I finally worked up the courage to ask her, and when i was in the process of asking her, i found out that she just got asked by some other guy 5 minutes earlier. She, of course, said yes to this other guy and i look stupid to her. Also, i just get teased on a regular basis. Thats why i dont really want to go to school. The people there dont like me for some reason and they start calling me names. And the worst part is that I start to believe them. Then I start looking at myself in a negative way and it stinks (for lack of a better term). And going back to the tennis thing......I know what im going to do. It doesnt help when you tell me that you really want me to play. It makes me feel like im letting you down. And for people that know me, you know that im a "people pleaser." So I feel terrible when people say that to me. Its frustrating when I feel like the world is against me, because I feel usless and I don't think that its a battle that I can win. Luckily, I have God on my side. And He can do anything.