Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Free

Fear of judgement is a huge part of my life that seems to take over every little thing that I do. I would always watch what i would say or do or even think out of fear of someone thinking I was wierd, stupid, or anything else negative. Even though it won't matter in the long run. Its an ongoing process that makes me forget who I am because I'm too busy being occupied with trying to be "safe." I want to be myself and I'm scared that its not going to be acceptable to everyone's idea of who I should be. BUT I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!!!!! I'M DONE WITH TRYING TO PLEASE EVERYONE! I'M GOING TO BE MYSELF FROM NOW ON! whew! that made me tired. So, I'm living for God and I don't care if that makes you feel any differently about me. That's who I am and I'm fed up with trying to live a double life. So, there you go, I'm am free from judgement.